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Hello, tomorrow i'm going ice skating! yippie. now that is something i'm looking forward too despite the heavy brain i am carrying now. oh well, i don't want to be bothered it much. i'm still incomplete and i hope to be complete soon. Tonight i guess, i'm going to call best friend, while that pack my bag also. i haven't pack my bag. ZX, your weird. you told me to sms you but end you didn't reply. could it be? well i don't think so. its shouldn't be this way. i wrote an oath today. An oath that i hope i will fulfill soon. i'm walking on the glass parade, parading myself as the victim of everything. people trying to bully me, make fun of me, use me, take control of my life & what next? i break down every time i feel so week. this new thing i have been interested on, made me realise how much things are still undiscovered in this world. Is this world that cruel? cant there be just one voice one world? Questions, all of us have questions that we hope our parents have the answer to it but i don't think they do. teenagers always think that running away from problems is always the best. so i tried but it come hunting me making me so weak. i thought i'm a superwoman. i guess no one is a superwoman. the superwoman is our mother who gave birth to us, its like a near death experience but we are also the one giving them the headaches&heartaches. isn't it wrong? i feel so helpless thinking i might never get to make my parents proud. All they can be proud off is thier child being a failure. the greatest failure anyone will meet in this world. maybe i should fly to mars and live my life out there. Everyone can say life has ups and downs, well thats true but some mishaps that happened are just to ridiculous & this ridiculous mishaps are the mishaps that make you feel useless, loser,fucked up & all the negative. Am i right? "i beg you god, in my prayers i beg for you to give me the strength to go through this phase smoothly.Every challenges that your going to give me in the future please give me the strength for me to stand on my own feet. My destiny is your hands, i wonder how it is going to be. Only you know, i will unfold the mystery sooner or later, and i'm sure it will be the best of me." Prove to me that your capable without the steps i have shown you; prove it. When I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows its better that way, till then, Famous Last Words
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